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A Rogue with Bloody Wings thinks....
Regret
Sometimes I wish I was bullied so I had a reason to be sad
Sometimes I wish someone would just go on a rampage and kill me

I am a burden on my family, friends, on everyone.
I'm a literal waste of space for I won't even start a race because I made myself believe I will lose no matter what.
My parents wasted hundreds of thousands trying to raise a success but instead they got me.
I wish I could turn back time so I wouldn't be born
I wish I could just swap out with a successful person and have them be the child my parents wanted.

Why did I turn out an error, I don't know what's wrong with me yet I do.
I don't know why I do the wrong. That's the question I look for?

I'm forcibly drowning myself, I've stopped the race knowing I won't win. I won't even get a placing because I quit.

I hate myself why can't I disappear
I'm sorry mum, sorry dad, sorry bro, sorry friends.
I can't be better. I won't be better because my mind is fixed.
I wish I was but ,,, I dont even know why
I'm too stubborn to get help and refuse it when it's offered...

I don't like getting yelled at so I constantly lie.
I want to disappear, I'm not needed, no one would notice if I was gone.
Just a speck of dust in the universe, what difference would it make if it was gone?
It didn't serve any purpose, just a burden.

What's wrong with me... I've been asking that question since 6th grade...

rogue blood angel
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