So last night I met this guy. I've known him for a while. I met him online and decided to actually come down and meet him. He lives ten hours away so my family kind of made a trip for it. Well, the first half of the night was a little weird. I didn't really say anything. But, my brother was there and he talked enough for the both of us. So, at least he was there. But, he kept mouthing 'talk' to me and kicked me, probably on accident, under the table a lot. But, I can't really help my awkward ness. It's natural and uncontrollable. So, I did apologize in advace due to that.
Well, we went out for ice cream after that. My brother made friends with one of the workers because he's incredibly outgoing and friendly. I really wish I would be like that sometimes. It would make things so much easier. I wish he could understand that I'm not like him though so that instead of getting angry with me he would understand a little.
Anywho, my brother would get up and talk to the worker when she had no costumers and it allowed me and this guy to have our time to talk. Which actually went rather well. We talked a lot more. Although, still, it wasn't a lot. I don't speak very well. But, by the end of the night I was more talkative and I guess that was pretty good.
I'm really starting to like him. Which I think could go both ways. It drives me crazy that I can't figure out what people are thinking. I can't stand it. I wish I knew what was going through his head. But, I don't usually allow myself to feel like this. I just can't help it. I don't really want him to leave when he does. I wanted to give him a hug and never let go but of course, that didn't happen.
I'm supposed to see him today. It's my last day here. I leave tomorrow morning at eight. I'm really hoping I can see him for a long period of time. And I'm hoping it isn't weird. I kind of want it to be a one on one type deal but my mom is having my brother tag along. I feel kind of bad because he made a comment on how he wished it was a double date kind of thing.
I really hope that him inviting us back out wasn't just to be nice. I hope he really did mean it. It would really make things that much more amazing. I don't understand why he has to live so far away. Or why I have to like him so much. Well, I just don't know. I guess this is it for now. I'll probably rant again after today is over. Just so you guys know how it went.
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