Hey guys I hope you're all doing good. I'm okay I just feel kinda bummed. Not for one reason specifically. Part of it is I miss my baby. I can't wait till we're married so I can fall asleep in his arms every night and wake up next to him. He's so perfect and cute and does everything for me and ahh I need our wedding to be like, tomorrow.
And another thing is you know when you feel like you've accomplished something really awesome or you think you're really good at something and then you see someone who is 10x better than you at it and it just makes you feel crappy? That's kinda how I feel too. Yes I love to draw and yes I love to write and I know that should be all that matters but I constantly compare myself to people who are better artists or better writers than me. And I just wish I could be as good as they are. It makes me feel like my own talent is kind of pointless, because why would anyone want to see my work or even buy it when there are people out there who can do so much better?
I guess I'm just beating myself up a little bit, I don't know why but sometimes I do that. I just wish I could be different. I think I'm talented at certain things but not enough to make a career out if it, or go to school for them. I'm really proud of my boyfriend because he just graduated school and has not only a high school diploma, but a vocational school diploma, and now a diploma that makes him a certified electrician. He's so driven and does a lot of things with his life and meanwhile I'm just still here, in the same position that I was when I graduated high school. I can't even drive a car.
But alas I still have him and he loves me for everything that I am. And so does my family. And pretty much my whole life revolves around wanting to see them happy, and doing what I can to make them that way. And as long as I do, I'll be happy too.
· Sat Apr 05, 2014 @ 07:00am · 0 Comments