What's in a pen name? A pseudonym? It's like a stage name in my head, really. It doesn't make sense, like a lot of my figurative language, but I can break it down. I'm not going to, but I can!

I think that the next time I'm on the verge of losing someone that will take a considerable chunk of my well-being with them, I'm going to be a great deal more selfish and starting making demands and issuing commands.

'Cause I can't keep doing it. I'm too old now! Haha. I need to start bonding with people I want at my funeral. If anyone is going to make it that long, I'm going to have to be a lot more permanent.

I have so many words trapped in me, but I can't spill my guts like I used to. I'm so repressed.