You'll never read this, but maybe you will. If you do, then I guess that means you still care, even if the person you are right now doesn't want you to care about me. I know right now you're not the guy I fell in love with, the guy I met in June, the guy I dated. You've obviously changed, but not for the better. I've been told you've become mean and it worries me.
The old you wouldn't insult strangers just because. You wanted to be friends with everyone, defend people, never to harm. You probably think the person you are right now is the real you, but it isn't. I know you're better than this. I know right now there's not much I can do for you since you don't come to me anymore, but I'm not going to chase you.
If you want me in your life, if you truly care for me and want me as a friend, you'll be the one coming to me. I still love you, I still care about you. Hell, there's not a day that goes by where I worry about you. Just know while you're doing whatever with whoever, I'm here. I'm here for you if you want to vent, if you need a good laugh, if you want a smile, if you want to let our whatever is on your mind. I was your girlfriend and I still love you so much, but since the day we met, I was your friend and I'll always be your friend. You're one of the few that knows me better than I know myself.
I'm going to give you your space, I'm going to continue loving my life and loving myself, I'm going to continue inspiring others to love themselves too, but please know I'm here for you. You might hate me, you might not. You might not give a s**t if I die tomorrow, you might. I've never hated you, I want to be there as much as I can, but I can't help you unless you want my help. I don't want to run and hope I can catch up to you. If you want to be in my life, if you truly want to be my friend, I'm here. I'm a private message away, I'm an IM away, and you have my number. I'm not saying goodbye, because I still care so much about you, but if you want to still be in my life, you'll find a way.
I love you and I'm always here for you no matter what. Like I said, you'll probably never read this or you will. I'm not your enemy, I don't hate you, I'm not stalking your life or trying to keep up. I hope someday you'll realize everything, but for now, there's not much I can do. Only you can come to me if you want to talk, not me coming to you. I hope we can talk again someday, you.