Well this is probably a stupid idea...but this is the only place where my thoughts arnt monitored I guess...
I am on anxiety/anti psychotic/anti depression meds now. The seem to be working mentally but do weird things to my hormones and s**t... I don't really ever get sad now...just angry and a painful longing empty whole feeling from time to time...I have a job now, slim hours right now but at least its something...and I should be moving out in the next two to three months into a nice apartment.
In some ways Im suuuuuper excited to be moving...but at the same time I have this unexplainable uneasy feeling about it...*sigh*
I still feel like an a**...Its hard to keep quiet and I'm beginning to slip on reasons why I shouldn't...why we shouldn't. *sigh*
I guess I really and a scared confused little girl...I don't want to be...and I'm so sorry for the suffering Ive caused. I feel like less than dirt about it...
Im so sorry...