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The life of Perest.
This Journal will pretty much be a place for my thoughts, and writings accordingly. I don't expect feedback of any sort. I'm doing this for the sake of my sanity. And, well, because it's not like I really have anyone to b***h to about my problems any
Journal entry 2; 2/7/14 6:33 P.M.

It's been a while since I've made a journal entry, a month exactly, off by around 3 hours I think. None-the-less, here I am. You know, after my first entry, things actually looked up a bit. I made a new connection with an old friend, and I lifted myself up passed the bad things that were going on in my life. But, as life has always tended to do to me, it ended, and here I am. In this hole and pit of sorrow once more. I saw a very close "friend" of mine with a guy today, who she'd promised me she was leaving (because he treats her like complete and utter garbage). And, well, I was developing feelings. I saw them together today, kissing, and it crushed my heart once more.

I know that I should really learn to not get my hopes up. But for ******** sake I just want to be loved. Is it really that difficult? I didn't want to think it was, but I'm learning it is..

I've contemplated.. Self harm. Again.
But I know it's not the right thing to do. I need to push through this.
But, how can I? I'm worthless right?
I don't know. I'm trying to look past my dark days and look forward and hope and pray to god that things start looking brighter. If not, I don't know what I'll do.

I guess all i can do... Is hope...

Deal With It.
LoL ign: Kingtubby52
First Penta 11-9-14
Battlenet: Kingtubby52#1179

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    Punk Bravery
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    commentCommented on: Mon May 19, 2014 @ 01:31am
    I do realize this was like a whileeee ago,
    and i know you don't expect comments.
    but i just want you to know that I'm here man,
    If you ever need to talk.

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