I wish mom knew the pain, she just keeps pushing it. But I'm better now, the knives are still here but not in my skin anymore, thank you Cry. He told me pain only leads farther down to the mind that will lead me to end pain, he would know. He knows how to comfort me, and he almost killed a guy for me. Why do these guys love me? How could they love an ugly insane girl? Mercedes already has an engagement ring for me, my insanity is already calmed because of the reality of being married. Thank god