I did it, and was nervous to the point of being sick. But I did it. No reply, but damn if I don't feel like I accomplished something. I know I can put myself out there, way from my comfort zone. He probably thinks I am crazy as heck, but, I feel like I deserve some peace of mind from this whole thing. It's sad, I would never have considered him treating me like I was diseased, like the feelings that continued to live on were this awful embarrassment from the past.