I knew the physical torture would be the worse, but this is not what I expected. The beatings and broken bones I can handle......but the toxins, the flaying, the continuous beatings.....may be more than I can bare. I am barely given enough time to heal properly before they begin again. At this rate, I may be driven mad by the pain.....or his mind games. I hear his voice in my head every minute....whispering things to me....lies....truth....it's getting hard to tell the difference now. I brought this on myself.....I know this.....if I had not failed in my attempt to claim Earth, maybe this would not have happened. Maybe he would have simply killed me.....tossed me aside and disposed of me like I was nothing. Maybe he still will......I find myself thinking of death more often now than ever before......but he will not grant it. For death would be a release from all this......a sweet mercy that I no longer deserve....
· Wed Feb 26, 2014 @ 05:26am · 0 Comments