Oh so much stress. Everyone is pressuring me to figure out who I am and what I want to do and telling me that who I want to be is going to change and I should think about it for the long run. So much work, such shitty teachers, people, classes. can I just be dead already? ********. I made out with the guy I was infatuated with, less infatuated but he's still an amazing person. I kind of goofed by making out with him because now he thinks we can't be friends. Honestly I don't get why he is making a huge deal out of it. We kissed, that's it. Maybe he had or has some feelings for me, I did kind of go for it when he broke up with his girlfriend. Maybe he wants to be the horny teenager he is and try and get as many chicks he can. I feel like guys are just as or more so confusing than girls may seem. Everyone is confusing me and everyone is depressed and it's a lot to deal with. I'm not good at cheering my self up and I don't know how to with others I don't understand why everyone talks to me about their problems. I also don't get why all my friends can't just get the ******** along. I can't stand everyone, I just want to be done with all of this, can everyone just get over their depressing phase so I can help myself? I don't know why I'm depressed, maybe because I don't fit in with anyone, no one has probably ever liked me except for the one guy I dated online for a month or so, I'm not good in school, I can't talk to anyone about how I feel because it'll make them feel worse, my mom is a hypocrite, depressed, and she's changing, some of my friends have tried killing themselves and been hospitalized, and It's impossible for me to loose weight so I'm a fat ********. This is the closest I've got when I need to get something off my chest. Sorry, I'm done.
· Thu Feb 20, 2014 @ 04:23am · 0 Comments