Ever since I have joined Gaia Online, I have always seen how much I have changed. It has been about 5 to 6 years. I have never forgotten Gaia over those years. The memories I had with Gaia, it was truly amazing.
I used to hang out around with a popular group of kids at school, but they were often quite similar to me. It's hard to wrap my finger around the fact that they have changed so much due to the feeling of having others idolize you, even if it's only for a few years. I see them now, and i see that some of them didn't let this change them. They used it as an opportunity to expand their life.
However, i wasn't that lucky. I was never able to communicate as well as they did. I wasn't as charming as they were, smart, funny, or cool. Of course I didn't care about impressing others at that age, but as i grew up i realize that i want to keep myself presentable to everyone I meet. After that, I was able to become more comfortable with myself.
Sometimes i wonder what it would have been like if i had acted differently in the past. Naturally, I assume everyone thinks that about their past, but i feel like I am more fixated on my past that others. So many things I never knew would be so hard for me, are making themselves present to me. Well, I think that should be all i talk about this entry. I doubt anyone will read these, because its more of an outlet for me.