Some times when i say
I just want someone to look me
in the eyes and hug me tight and say
"I know you're not"
I realized that you can hide anything behind a fake smile. I always wondered if i was just another girl to you, another girl you can trick into liking you, until you find a new one to screw over. You tell them that 'they are beautiful' and 'you want to hold them in your arm'. You probably said those things to get into there pants, and leave them. But I didn't let you. I was just a challenge to you, i was just a game that you lost. Was that all i was? A little game...
You wanted me to tell you how I felt. And for what? so you can end up hurting me or judging me like all the rest. No, i dont want to play this game with you, i quit. I'm sick of you playing me. I'm sick of letting you. But, im also sick of me not letting myself forget you. Me not letting myself get over you, and worst of all.. for not hating you, which i know i should, but I just can't. it's hard, you had me wrapped around your finger for once, because i let my guard down. Once you knew that you left. and now im here on gaia letting on my feelings out, because i know you wont see it. You're done with me... But for me... it's just the beginning
· Mon Jan 27, 2014 @ 06:29am · 0 Comments