For this prompt, you should start your story with: Dear Dolores, I know it has been 37 years since I have been in touch...
I know it has been 37 years since I have been in touch. I am sorry. I know that these words are not enough to heal the pain that I've caused you. But as the years grow and the more wrinkle and tired I've become, I knew I can not leave this world without telling you why. You deserve to know the reason why I didn't come back; why I didn't fight for you.
It's because I couldn't bare the fact that you were sacrificing too much for me. It broke my heart to see that you were doing so much and yet I couldn't do anything in return. I hated the fact that each day you worried for me, not knowing if I would die in battle. And when I did come back from the war I wasn't always there mentally. The nightmares, the struggle to function normally in society again. It was becoming too much for you to handle. There's so much a person could take and I didn't want you to suffer any more. I could see the weariness and loneliness in your eyes. You tried to hide it, but I could see it. You would get a misty look whenever you saw families spending time together. Or whenever someone spoke to you about our future plans. You wanted a family and I wanted to give you one but I couldn't; not when I was a messed up. You kept telling me there was plenty of time and that we could wait until I'm better but I knew that it would be too late by then.
I was holding you back and I knew that I had to let you go. It was the hardest decision I ever made...but I don't regret it. You deserve so much better than me. That is why, my dearest Dolores...I loved you too much to have you suffer my love. I won't be surprise if you threw this letter out without reading it. I would if I was in your place. And I'm not expecting forgiveness for what I've done to you. But I hope that in one day, somewhere, we'll met again and there will be no more regrets or pain between us anymore.
· Fri Jan 17, 2014 @ 06:07pm · 0 Comments