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A Rogue with Bloody Wings thinks....
Why do I complicate things so much
Complicating things a lot more
I can't do my work because I'm distracted over nothing
I want someone to talk about these stupid thoughts about
I wish I had a friend
No internet friend wants to hear my stupid problems,
glad I can just type my crap in this journal where no one has to read it

I want to scream shout and let go all of these bundled emotions
Everything is making me angry
I really want a friend though I always wonder why my friends leave me in a ditch while they make friends with each other and leave me out
Sometimes I just want to slice all ties I have now and just move somewhere else and start entirely new

i think I like hating myself but don't wnat anyone else to hahte me
I always wonder if my class were to do a "rate the class out of importance" I would be near the bottom because I just sit in the corner alone rreally.
I made a new friend a fewm onths back but she's made friend with my old friend (someone who bullied me) and it turns out she does drugs and drinks as well
The person I wanted to befriend has made friends already but they're still quiet.
I'm just a person to talk to when someone doesn't have anyone better to be with.
My 'friend' only talks to me until her other friend come into sight and then she bolts.
another one says stuff like "well, you're stupid" or "well, you're ugly" as a comeback to me, even if she's joking her serious face hurts when I hear the words directed at me
I heard my 'friends' planning somethingof course wihtout me. Just casually eating my lunch while everyone else at the table plans their weekend out to meet each other

Another old friend, I tried to aim her toward something that won't end up hurting her as much but now she's probably into drugs, sex and gossip
I don't want to be around her anymore because I felt like a tag on her back while she did whatever and it made me uncomfortable at times to be in her 'group of friends'

I lost my buddy in art class after the seating change, now I"m next to mr. preppy A-hole and his flock of female friends and someone I would rather not talk with because he seems like a jerk the way he talks to other.s.
Speaking of that art class, it is pissing me off, the teacher is practically teaching us to plagiarize off the internet and acts like it isn't illegal if it's for school. Sure we aren't selling things but people are taking random artworks off the internet wihtout giving credit and it bothers me to hell! AND SHE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT THE EFF SHE'S EVEN F***ING DOING! SHE IS JUST IMITATING THE WORK OF THE LAST TEACHER AND KAFSCXGNCMHJ?BHG U I FEEL LIKE I HATE HER BECAUSE MOST OF MY SCHOOL STRESS IS FROM HER STUPID ASSIGNMENTS THAT TEACH US FU**KING NOTHIGN

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I'm done ranting for now since I can't see the keyboard over stupid tears that I don't even knonw why I'm shedding? Anger?
my wrist hurts, I want to draw but I can't finish a drawing without getting too angry and deleting it I want my scanner

rogue blood angel
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