in the late hours of the night, I dig up the worst memories from my brain.
I think of the poor choices I've made, or the hurt that I've caused.
And I cry.
I want you to know,
there isn't a single day that goes by
where I don't pay for my mistakes.
My mind is the worst prison that could exist on this earth. I'm stuck here for the rest of my life.
I know most have moved on and forgotten all of the bad. How I 'set fire to everything I touch' or 'use to get the things I want'.
But I'll never forget finding I was the topic of everyone's conversations.
Or how all the people around me were just pretending to like me.
Watching the words I had spoken no sooner than a minute before being quoted and laughed about, silently through a computer screen. In front of my own face.
My life has not been the same since that morning. I was nothing more than curious.
"Curiosity killed the cat"
How ******** accurate.
I still remember every word I read, naked in your bed while you were taking a shower.
I've never felt so ugly in my life.
And it's all I see now, when I look in the mirror.
This is the reason I don't go through phones.
Though you never even asked.
I just wanted to share another thing I regret.
· Sun Jan 12, 2014 @ 12:27am · 0 Comments