It's so discouraging when one of your greatest friends changes. changes in a way that discourages you from thinking of him/her in the same way.
Friends come and friends go yes that is true but that doesn't mean the memories go as well.
I've had many friends go but man this one is probably the saddest..
I had a friend name Chloe.
Chloe was literally one of the best girls I've ever met when I first met her.
She was so natural and happy.. so nice and man she was just a gorgeous human being.
If I wasn't in a relationship at the time I would of definitely tried to be with her..
Ironically she kissed my girlfriend (at that time) as joke which was kind of odd..
but ever since those times.. she just started to change for the worst..
She was slowly turning from this beautiful person whom I would sit with in hot summer days and talk about random shenanigans to this person I would barely ever hang out with at all. From what I heard she started drinking and one time I hung out with her she pulled out a cig and started smoking it.. man that crushed me..
She's sometimes on a bitter mood from what I see on her statuses as well..
She's not as natural anymore.. she re-did her eyebrows got a bunch of piercings..
Now don't get me wrong it's not like I'm against these things.. but think of it like this.. You see a beautiful tree.. just the way it shines and everything, just to be trimmed and painted and you wonder why she did this when it was beautiful in the first place. I hang out maybe once or twice a year.. I remember how the summer we first met we would try to hang out as much as possible.. just sitting by her side talking and talking. But now it's just different. It's not the same. I don't think she knows let alone cares. I've never told her how I felt.. maybe I will one day when I leave this place. I wish she could just go back to being her old self..
This situation has taught me to be who I am. and not to change for the worse for my friends. I will be there for them and let them know that I appreciate their existence in my life.. I don't know if anyone will read this.. I think Chloe has a Gaia account but she's not on my friend's list.. but if you do happen to read this Chloe for some crazy reason. You will always be my friend buddy. I've always loved you dearly. You are a very special human being.. but I miss the old you. I really do. Maybe you're on a phase or maybe this is who you have become.. I still miss the old you.
this guy beside me
· Thu Jan 09, 2014 @ 05:59am · 0 Comments