Life is so crazy sometimes. One minute you’re a kid, excited by each passing year as your number increases, until one day you realize getting older really isn't all it’s cracked up to be. Things that seemed cool and the 'thing to do' become something that later you wonder if you have passed your 'sell-by' date. Gaia is that one thing for me. I have tried on multiple occasions to dump this place, but I just don't think it’s my time. Am I trying to hold on to my youth? Am I just, as my 5 year old states it, just silly? It’s hard to grasp that I was just 15 when I started this site (and 16 this account), and now ten plus years later I am still here. Gaia doesn't bring the same joy that it once did, and as of recently has been coded as ‘that teenager site that I play’. No longer can I RP and just 'chat' with my fellow gaians. Why? Because I feel that anything could become inappropriate (with situation and words), and the idea that the average gaian is still in school lurks in the shadow. Occasionally I do run into another 'adult gaian', but it’s the internet so who really knows. So with this in mind I spend the majority of my time here in the Exchange, another place on Gaia going through some rapid changes. I guess just based on my busy pace of life, and the selfish demeanor of people I can no longer keep up and I am quickly selling and buying off the MP. This isn't participation its mere existence. I guess I must come to a term that even though there is no true age restriction for this site, doesn’t mean one doesn't exist as a norm. A post that started off as a reflection has quickly turned into a letter of resignation. And while I don’t think it will happen immediately, it will come in stages. Tootsi’s resolution for 2014 is to move on from Gaia Online. It has been a great ride, but my exit is quickly approaching.