I always wonder what I'm good for, I mean I'm usually below average or just terrible! I'll describe situations and categories that one could be successful or whatever in.
Art: I mean I always look at my art and look at someone else's artwork and then just sulk because I'm not good as them or I'll smirk and be smug then be disgusted in myself for acting like I'm the best shit there is.
I don't know how I can improve either, and I'm always dragged out of practicing or I find an excuse. I don't know what to practice or how to get better! ← main excuse for my BS. Fact is I don't know where to start. My line art looks terrible and my coloring is just as bad guh. I think I'm going to pry myself from being digital and go to traditional and master that before I go back to traditional :/
Math: I'm decent in math but it's just so effing boring! And I forget things way to quickly and get terms mixed up and get distracted easily! GAH! I'm done talking Math. I Need to practice and I know what so it's my fault I'm terrible here...Gawd I know conscience~
English: I'm bad in Language arts, mostly because it's boring and the teachers never taught me anything and the teachers I have now don't and won't teach us what we missed in the past years. F**k me. Everything confuses me I need to find a site where I can just learn everything from grade 1 again! Grr!
You can tell I'm bad at English by my sentence structures because it's just terrible! (I'm sorry about your bleeding eyes sir or madam)
SOCIAL: I'm bad here, I'm terrible at being social. First of all I get really shy and take days to build up courage to talk to someone BUT it's even worse with Guys! I never wanted to admit this but I'm really uncomfortable around Guys I mean REALLY uncomfortable. Especially the ones I want to be friends with and when the guy talks to me I freak out and end up being a jerk to them.
F**k can't even talk about it ... I'm just realizing maybe I did have a crush on that one guy....
ugh, i feel at a stuck, maybe I'll continue this later. F**k
I'm okay, I'm Ok. I think
rogue blood angel
· Sat Jan 04, 2014 @ 02:15am · 0 Comments