Your smile expresses some form of happiness, contentment, of some kind,
Oh but you're hurting, aren't you? I see it in your weary eyes,
Your laughter is now forced, I don't understand why you try,
I'm the one who hurt you, why do you insist on being so kind?
I'm a terrible person, surely you must know this by now,
I broke you, destroyed you, rejected you... yet you still come around,
You insist on wasting your time with me, just to make me smile,
Told me that anything involving me, would always be worthwhile,
God Damn it... I pushed you away for a reason, why is it so hard for you to see?
I did this for you, to keep you away from the monster that is me...
I'm not this... perfect person you've made me out to be...
Yet you're still here, and even though I purposely hurt you, ever day,
You always try to cheer me up and make me smile, just the same...
Just the same as it has always been... just ******** give up,
You told me what you felt for me, wasn't lust,
But an undying, sincere, amount of love...
I can feel my walls breaking, feel my heart pounding,
I faintly feel your love suffocating, surrounding,
We're bad for each other, you and I,
You've hurt me terribly too, made me cry,
Made me hide my thoughts and emotions away from everyone,
I remember that day, you told me you were just having fun..
That you never really cared for me, never truly loved...
We're just the ******** same...
With our twisted love games...
Thanks to you I find it hard to care for anyone but myself,
Find it hard to reach out, to ask for help,
To want to embrace someone, to love them, to want them to love me,
Now it is only hate, fear of being used, darkness, is all I see,
Couldn't just ******** let me be,
At least now I know, no one could truly love,
The monster that is now me.
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