Why do I try so hard to grab ur attention? If u truly cared I wouldn’t have to try…u would follow in ur commitments and u would be here for me….but I guess those wishes wont be coming true from u anytime soon… the one day u finally said ud show up early…I believed u…u showed up at 230….now today u say ur pissed…so pissed u cant show up…leaving me here crying knowing that u wont show up at all. Knowing that all those promises were for nothing. My heart breaks again. Another day…another disappointment from u. I cry the pain in my heart screams out at the top of my lungs…why!!! Why do I love u so damn much!!!!!!!!!!! I love you…my heart breaks so deeply…I love u…I love u…I love u…
Im broken…..now u hate me. I lost the thing I love most by writing down my feelings…wy do I try… why should I live anymore…why
At the end…it seemed to turn out…I still have a guard of its all fake. But….something clicked in me today….i realized ive been waiting for him to throw me to the curb….to say see ya and ditch me. So ive been pushing him to do just that…when in the end I need to relax and take it one step at a time, enjoy our time together and not look too far into the future…no matter how hard it will be, that’s what I seem to need to work on.
