I've been off wayyy too long. I feel so bad
Lets see, I'm in college now. Studying Graphic design.
I've decided that I will one day work at Nintendo -- and that's that.
I'm waiting for my mom to bring home chipotle. MMMMM.. CHIPOTLE.
I think I'll try to update this more often... No promises. I forget sometimes.
I don't have much to report today other than I go back to school tomorrow, which is ok. I live in the dorms and I'm just finishing up thanksgiving break and tomorrow my grandfather will be taking me back to school.
I'm kind of excited to go back because my home life right now is... less than desirable... but I won't bore you with that, haha.
My life over all, though, is in a much better place then it would be had all that drama not happened a few years ago with my ex. I'm honestly kind of glad my ex-friend took him from me. He wasn't good for me and she can have him.
I forgive them, not because what they did was ok, but because I'm a better person because of the situation, and if I kept all that anger in me, it would mean that they won. -- and that's that.
I'm with a wonderful man now. He treats me wonderful and trusts me 100%. I don't see him most of the time because I'm away at school and never has he ever accused me of doing anything like cheating or anything. He supports every decision I make and really makes my life better. I try so hard to be a good girlfriend to him, and I feel like I do a horrible job, but he says I'm doing ok. He is the raft I cling to when I'm drowning.
I struggle with depression. I've finally come to admit that it's not just me being sad occasionally, it's much deeper than that... I hope to at some point get some help, but it's hard because I also have pretty heavy social anxiety. I try, though. Whenever I think of killing myself, I just remember that one day I'll work for Nintendo and I can kind of push through whatever is hurting me or stressing me out... but you know...「そんなに世間は甘くない」.
I think I'm done typing for today. My mom should be back with the Chipotle any minute now. I'm sorry if the last bit bummed you out, so here's a cute picture of Bee and Puppycat
don't hate me!
· Sun Dec 01, 2013 @ 01:55am · 0 Comments