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The poems and things I have written over the years. This is not now this is all from over the years hope you all like it :)
Surely a child who grew out of grief would be born of a heavy heart.

I'm ashamed and torn apart at the seams
Under the weight of all the truth that a lie uncovers,
and all the regret that comes with one mistake.

The girl who seamed unbreakable-BROKEN
The girl who seamed so strong-CRUMBLED
The girl who always laughed it off-CRIED
The girl who never stopped trying-FINALLY GAVE UP

If your heart was really broken; well, then, my dear...you'd be dead.

It's funny how a hello is always accompanied by goodbye. It's funny how good memories can start to make you cry. It's funny how forever never seems to really last. It's funny how much you lose if you forget about your past. It's funny how 'friends' can just leave you when your down. It's funny how when you need someone they are never around. It's funny how people change and think they're much better. It's funny how many lies can be packed in one 'love letter.' It's funny how people forgive even though they can't forget. It's funny how one night can contain so much regret. It's funny how ironic life turns out to be, but the funniest part of all is that none of that is funny to me.

I guess by now I should know even about loss to realize that you never really stop missing someone, you just learn to live around the huge gaping hole of their absence.

It's just one of those days when everything is completely wrong, and yet you don't even know why you're so depressed. And it's one of those days when you wish everyone would just leave you alone and go away. Yeah it's one of those days when all you need is to be left alone. Yet the same time you wish someone out there would care.

She smokes like no tomorrow, she says it makes her feel alive. She drinks her wine like water because she feels dry inside. She drives her car like it's a bullet, she says that time is slipping away. She never thinks about the future. It's a million miles away.

I don't know how to love you, but I can't walk away

Panic holds me like a gun, firm and steadfast, bleak and cold. I think it's time to kill the drama. This lifestyle is getting old.

Because sometime there is no easy way out. You just have to grin and bear it. Sometimes the only escape route is to go straight through the flames, just braces yourself and bit your lip. Sometimes you just have to sever the ties clean off. Because in every relationship there comes a point when the damage is too much and no matter good it once was, the memories can't sustain you. You have to save yourself knowing all the while it will hurt like hell. Because you can't keep giving someone everything if you get nothing in return.

When you're forced to stand alone
You realize what you have in you

Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small, like when we do a bag thing for a good reason. Some are bigger, like when we let down a friend. Some of us escape the pain of regret by making the right choice. Someone of us have little time for regret because we are looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change our ways. But our biggest regrets are not for the things we did but for the things we didn't do, things we didn't say that could have been saved someone we cared about. Especially when we can see the dark storm that's headed their way.

Remember people love in different ways

What makes you stay when your world falls apart? What makes you try one more time when it's not in your heart? At the end of your rope when you can't find any hope? You still look at him and say I can't walk away.

The most difficult phase of your life is when no one understands you, it's when you don't understand yourself.

It hurt, though not as much as everything else.

People lie, they say they have your back, but they really don't. If you're going to talk, then back it up with your actions, don't just say one thing but really do another. Think about peoples feelings for one time in your life. s**t kills.People take things personally. You really can't expect anything from anyone. They're just going to let you down one way or another. Don't let your guard fall, even if you think you can trust someone. The only person you can 100% trust is YOURSELF. No one else will understand you completely. People suck. End of story. Trust no one, depend on yourself, and don't get hurt.





Disneygirl2009
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  • 11/24/13 to 11/17/13 (22)
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