Hey... so back in the journal. It's weird.. I haven't used this as much as I used too. Sad thing is... I only crawl back when I need it. (Side note: I'm so afriad of being over dramatic that if I do anything that seems like a movie cliche and notice it I get mad at myself.) So.... what do I need to throw at this page tonight? Well honestly it's simple this time. Fear. I'm afraid. Of so many things but let's just go with the main one. I'm afraid I'm losing Ana. I feel like I'm not good enough. Like... one day she'll just say it's not real and leave me. Just... go. Honestly I've never had this problem until recently. I dunno. I need to sleep. I promised I would be by now. I should be. One other thing is... I'm too weak. I need to be stronger.