I'm not sure if its normal for me to feel this way. Nothing for me has gone bad since he left about two months ago. I've had no reason to feel sad, and lonely. But i do. And i don't know why. I didn't cry when he died left, I didn't cry at his funeral, I don't cry now when i talk about him. I don't do anything. I can't do anything, everything feels numb. I haven't been sleeping for the past few weeks, the dark circles under my eyes cant even be hidden by makeup anymore. My teachers are worried about me, they talk to my parents and the guidance a lot. But even they have no idea what to do. People at school tell me i shouldn't be sad, that i have it good, and such. But how they say they understand soething about me, that i dont even understand?
The "Doctor" gave me some new pills medication to take now, he said they are suppose to make me sleep, and the others are to make me happy not sad. I have never been this depressed before, and the pills don't make it any better. I just want to forget about this and wake up from this seemingly illusion. I want to wake in my bed and see that everything was the way it was before.
The Doctor was right, these new pills do make me sleep, heh. I think i'm gonna lie down for a while, maybe sleep will come to me. Maybe even dreams.
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