I didn't mean to cost you your job. I didn't think it was a big deal. I thought I gave you the option of going in. I thought I said if you really wanted to it was ok. I thought you hated your job anyways. They were always so mean to you and bullied you so much. I didn't think you'd care or miss it. I didn't think it was a big deal.
Why are you just now treating it like it is?
It hurts me so badly that you kept this from me to protect my feelings. You're in charge of your own actions though. You're treating it like you regret it now. You decided to stay home though. I didn't make you. I didn't give you an ultimatum. I asked. You didn't want to go in in the first place. You were complaining about how much you hated your job .. how they bullied you .. and I said it wasn't worth it. That you should just stay home and talk to me. That you should find another job. I even admitted I was being a bad influence and selfish maybe by saying that.
I'm so upset by this .. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry that I got upset. I know this job means a lot to you because I have the same one. I don't want you to lose it. If you lost this job because of just ASKING for time off it would kill me. If you truly think that it will then I'll concede.. I just ... find it so apalling that it would hurt to just ask. I wish you would have told him up front during the interview you needed that time off.
It makes me feel like ... this doesn't mean as much to you as it does to me. You say that isn't true but .. maybe I'm just being a sensitive Cancer. I don't know. I love you so much. I don't want this to blow up into a huge thing. I just would be so hurt if I came down and you had to work for all 4 days.
We haven't seen each other in a year. Is this job really worth it? If the roles were reversed I know I would quit my job in seconds to spend even just 4 days with you. Granted, I have wanted this job for a long time and I would be out of a job but you're worth it. You mean more to me than anything. The fact that I would do it for you kills me because I expect you to do the same. And the fact that you aren't makes me think you don't care as much as I care. That you're choosing your job over me. That I'm not worth it in comparison. I know you say that's not true but actions speak louder than words.
· Fri Nov 15, 2013 @ 02:54am · 0 Comments