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A recollection of a life once lived
Just random babblings of myself, who I am, who I once was, where I came from and how exactly I came to be where I am today.
I'm sorry if I did anything wrong...But if you're going to leave, then I guess all I can say is that I'm sorry.
I still love you...Always will. And I sincerely hope you're alright.

I know I made too many mistakes for me to ever make up for it in this life, but still I hoped. No matter how many times I ran away, I always came back. Every single time. No matter what happened, we always ended up meeting again. I never intended to make that seem as though I was using you, or taking advantage of you at all. All this time I've never, ever, even for a moment been able to legitimately get over you at all. I still loved you, all this time. I still love you now. And that's why this whole thing kills me so much.
I know I'm a horrible person, but please don't punish yourself because of me...You deserve happiness. You never did anything wrong, I did, and I'm sorry. I'm sorry that sorry will never be enough to make up for anything.
All I can hope is that you'll find it in you to forgive me someday. I want nothing more out of life anymore. Just you.

I wish I could show you somehow how much I mean this. Every word. I know I've said so many things before and made so many mistakes...Maybe I'd be better off dying, who knows? I just don't know anymore.
If you ever read this, let alone reply to it, just know that I love you, and I always will. No matter how tired the phrase seems, or whether you still care at all or not. I promised you I would love you forever, and I am still bound to that promise to this day. It's all I have left.

Take care, Christina...
I love you so much.
Always, and Forever.

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