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11/13/2013 11:17 PM

The snow is all melted. I was looking in the mirror, and I remembered an old memory from my childhood. I was in my very first room. I must have been 7 or 8 years old. I was playing Abe's Odyssey with my friend Jeremiah Pool. I am not sure how the conversation started, but my mom told me that when I am older I will have facial hair and a deeper voice. I remember sitting there playing the game, wishing that I had a deep voice and facial hair right then. I remember talking and trying to make my voice deep, and touching my cheeks to try and feel for facial hair. I cannot remember how it felt to be a child with such a mindset. For weeks I would go into the bathroom and closely inspect my face in the mirror, still looking for growing facial hair. As I got older into middle school and high school, I finally got the deep voice, but very little facial hair. All the way up to 12th grade I barely even had a few chin hairs. I really wanted that facial hair. The memory of that childhood want not even in my mind any longer. I just knew that I wanted it. It took me until my 20's to finally get my facial hair to start filling in well. Now, I do not care about it one bit. I used to, but that is a different story. I wonder, though, if my want for facial hair as an adult was because I had wanted it so badly as a child. I wonder about a lot of the wants that I currently have. Am I childish deep down? Are some of my actions based off of anything remotely affiliated with this? Maybe. I suppose it no longer matters. I have made some plans for myself that I hope will put me on a good path. I just hope everything works out...

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