I feel like I'm coming to the point where I have to decide on what I'm going to do..
It's confusing... I mean... I felt weird so long.. never really told anyone... and didn't find out for sure what it was till about 4-6 months ago.. It just.. bugs me... I mean.. I have to decide if I should do it or not.. I would start now.. or just.. I Don't know.. In the very real chance that I have a hormone disorder.. My mum will want me on testosterone.. I don't want that... I'd want the opposite.. I mean... I think.. I don't know.. I've just been thinking about it so much lately.. lately people can't tell if I'm a girl or a guy because of the way I act, and my looks and such.. I dunno if I'm kinda happy or not..I'm just mad that I'm like this.. I wish I was just normal.. then I could just have a normal life with her.. but.. I know no matter what happens I want to have a life with her.. just... don't know what she would want... I am not sure what I want to do about my self.. I'm scared honestly.. I dun wanna tell her even though I should.. I dunno what she'd think.. I guess I'll make this entry private...
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