I can't stand it.. My family.. I.. its not a family.. never was and I can't stand it... Just.. nothing can describe it.. its not as bad as some.. but defiantly more chaotic then most... I hope the blood test results come back and say I'm going to die soon.. because then my family might have a realization and actually start CARING for me.. and perhaps lemme go to london.. and when I'm in london I'd google the cure for whatever I have then be fine... I just.. I wonder what it would be like to live with someone that cares about you and treats you well... no matter how good everything else is I just can't stop being depressed because of this.. and it sucks...