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Them Feels.
A log of sad, happy, or life changing stories. Stories submitted by me, fans, Anons, or stuff I just find laying around the Internet.
Ugly the Cat.
Everyone in the apartment complex I lived in knew who Ugly was. Ugly was the resident tomcat.Ugly loved three things in this world. Fighting, eating garbage, and shall we say, love.
These things, combined with the life spent outside had their effect on Ugly. To start with, he had only one eye, and where the other one would have been was a gaping hole. He was also missing his ear on the same side, his left foot appeared to been badly broken at one time, and had healed at an unnatural angle, making him look like he was always turning a corner. His tail has long since been lost, leaving only the smallest stub, which he would constantly jerk and twitch.
Ugly would have been a dark grey tabby, except for the sores covering his head, neck, even his shoulders with thick, yellowing scabs. Every time someone saw Ugly, there was the same reaction. "That's one ugly cat!!"
All the children were warned not to touch him, the adults threw rocks at him, hosed him down, squirted him when he tried to come in their homes, or shut his paws in the door when he would not leave.
Ugly always had the same reaction. If you turned the hose on him, he would stand there, getting soaked until you gave up and quit. If you threw things at him, he would curl his lanky body around feet in forgiveness. Whenever he spied children, he would come running meowing frantically and bump his head against their hands, begging for their love. If you ever picked him up, he would immediately begin suckling your shirt, earrings, whatever he could find.
One day, Ugly shared his love with the neighbors huskies. They did not respond kindly, and Ugly was badly mauled. From my apartment, I could hear his screams, and I rushed to his aid. By the time I got to where he was laying, it was apparent Ugly's sad life was almost at an end.
Ugly lay in a wet circle, his back legs and lower back twisted gruesomely out of shape, a gaping tear in the white strip of fur that ran down his front. As I picked him up and tried to carry him home, I could hear him wheezing and gasping, and I could feel him struggling. I must be hurting him terribly I thought.
Then I felt a familiar tugging sensation on my shirt. Ugly, in so much pain, suffering and obviously dying was trying to suckle my shirt. I pulled him closer to me, and he bumped the palm of my hand with his head, then he turned his one golden eye towards me, and I could hear the distant sound of purring. Even in the greatest of pain, that ugly, battle-scarred cat was asking only for a little affection, perhaps some companionship.
After that moment I thought Ugly was the most beautiful, loving creature I had ever seen. Never once did he try to bite me or scratch me, or even try to get away. Ugly just looked up at me completely trusting in me to relieve his pain.
Ugly died in my arms before I could get inside, but I sat and held him for a long time afterwards. Thinking about how one scarred, deformed little stray could so alter my opinion about what it means to have true pureness of spirit, to love so totally and truly. Ugly taught me more about giving and compassion than a thousand books, lectures, or talk show specials ever could, and for that I will always be thankful.
He had been scarred on the outside, but I was scarred on the inside, and it was time for me to move on and learn to love truly and deeply. To give my heart to those I cared for.
Many people want to be richer, more successful, well liked, beautiful, but for me, I will always try to be Ugly.

yung chimmy
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