This is a whole new low, like really sadlow. Ive been feeling this way for a while and i cant talk to anyone about it. Its like i dont wanna come off as someone with a different attitude but this shell i build up is now breaking down. And now the true me peaks out. I mean am not fake or anything i still keep it real. But there is this inner demon in me that i hate and its starting to tear down the walls i place up. It hurts like hell knowing that ive almost given into temptation. I wish my father wasnt so strict because i could really use a long walk on the beach right now. But i have to be crammed in my room. Now i know how my demon feels. She feel lonely and trap and feels like she can never be understood. I was so much better without this side of me, Why is this happening now... Should i stop fighting? Or should i just build a better wall?