Lately I've been feeling pretty ******** depressed and lonely. Problem: I'm in love with someone who's already with another.
He knows what is going on with me and how I feel. He accepts it and sometimes he says that he wants to be with me. I believed him, but I don't know anymore. We've been fighting a lot over this stupid situation. I tried killing myself over it.
I guess that I'm starting to doubt his love for me. Or maybe it's me that I'm doubting. I think about him all of the time and it's hard to get him out of my mind. But is this love that I'm feeling, or something else? I can't and won't deny that I want to be with him. The thing is, I don't think that I want him to choose me because he feels sympathetic towards me. He says that he loves that other guy and me, too. I don't want to be just a step for him to climb. I just got out of a bad relationship with Nick. I don't want to fall into another just to be disappointed all over again...
Okay, rant over now.
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