I have been trying to find my passion and drive again. I'm losing it for HSA; the energy is gone, the fun is gone. Now it is pulling teeth. I know that I feed off other's energy's in order to be positive, but with no one seeming energetic about the club, I can't get positive myself, especially with every other aspect of my life feeling like a sinkhole.
Maybe it's cause this is my last year of college and that reality is sinking in that I am so down and out. I don't know what lays ahead and it's freezing me up a bit possibly. Who will be there? Where will I be? What will I be?
Finally, it's so hard seeing Diana around campus. It makes me want my friend who had such great energy back. I dreamed that she added me back on FB, but even then I told myself I may not add her or talk to her for a bit longer. Why am I not over you? Why do the memories with you still trouble me?
· Thu Oct 31, 2013 @ 03:29pm · 0 Comments