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Good grief its chilly today. Then again, winter is coming and I am not near the equator, so duh xd The cold is actually really nice sometimes because I sleep better with lower temperatures and a big, warm comforter. In fact I don't sleep well in summer because its so flipping hot. Unfortunately, I have no big warm comforter right now. See, nearly everything I own clothing and bed sheet wise, is filthy. I've been wearing pants for two weeks and shirts for one week. I'm running out of shirts. My room mate has the same problem. Though he has it much worse by comparison. His stuff can be clean in the morning and within half an hour at work, its nasty. He's been wearing the same clothes for a week too. So, yeah, really bad. "Why don't you just do laundry?" one might ask. Well, if we went without electricity for a month we might be able to do that. But we can't. So f*ck you and everyone else who has clean clothing. Because we are miserable. stressed I'm a bit irritated this week. Or maybe its just today. Whatever.

The jehovah people didn't come this week. Can't remember if they said they wouldn't be here or not last week. Oh well. I'm glad they didn't show. Getting riled up about them gives me focus, but I don't entirely enjoy it. Well, no, I don't enjoy their stupidity. Actually, this morning I found out that an online friend that I've known for years believes in psychics, destiny, and that time is an illusion. He tried to back this up by saying that a woman he spoke to (a psychic or medium) said these things and that she knew things she couldn't have known. When he tried to back up his claims of time being an illusion by saying that time doesn't effect light, then went into the big bang and that time and light didn't exist until then or something. It was confusing and hard to follow. It was also rediculess. I don't know if time effects light or if it can be measured, but I know that it takes ages for light from the stars to reach us on earth and just because of that it doesn't mean that time doesn't exist. It also doesn't mean the stars are stuck in the past however many years because light from them just got to us. It just doesn't work that way. I tried to compare it to viruses: My question was "viruses are not technically alive and they don't die, so does that mean life and death aren't real?" his reply was "yes and no". I told him that his reply was nonsensicle and he brought up Shrodinger's cat. I already know that argument, and it doesn't apply as we've already opened the box, so to speak, in this particular example. The conversation eventually teetered off, but I'm left with a strange feeling. My friend is a kind, hard working, honest, guy. He's smart about certain things. He has opinions and I love talking to him and hearing his opinions and sharing mine with him... But, in this instance, he sounds a little.... stupid. Like the jehovah people, in a sense. I don't want to think of him differently. I want him to be that smart guy who is funny and so nice. I don't want my mental picture of him to be changed. However, after this conversation with him, my high regards to him are somewhat diminished. It makes me feel bad. Really bad. He's my friend, it shouldn't matter what he thinks or believes I should embrace him no matter what. He wouldn't change his mind of me over something so small and I should not do so to him. I feel like a bad person. Am I a bad person? If it never come sup again, that's fine. But what if it does? What do I say? cry