It hasn't hit me yet, but I'm going to boot camp on July 7th 2014. I got 9 more months left until I go and I don't even know why I sign up for the Marines. Well I mean I do, but I just realized it's the dumbest reason to sign up. I could have just gone to college and everything would have been a lot better. My parents would've been proud that I was going to college and going for Nursing. Now I feel as if I'm ******** up my life signing up for the Marines. Am I ******** up my life or doing something great with my life? I sure as hell don't know that's why I'm writing this. It's too late for me to back out, but looking back at the reason as to why I signed up was dumb. I haven't regretted much of my decisions in life, but this is the 4th decision I know I'm going to regret. I sign a 4 year contract in the Marines, I know I'm going to lose most of my freedom to become a Marine, and I know I'm going to make a lot of sacrifices as long as I'm in the Marines. My family though...they're taking it harder than I am. I don't want to hurt them or those I love. This decision already ruined my relationship. ******** up with another one cause I wanted this beautiful girl attention. I'm a mess to tell the truth. Always hurting those I care about the most, I just hope I can grow old with those I love and care about.