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Hope Kills
Pain, ******** pain.
It's making me weak.
I'm breaking, but I still choose not to speak.
There's not a word that I squeek.
I keep it all in.
Then my emotions hit me like a big wave coming in.
Like an earthquake my world shakes and starts to cave in.
Now I'm stuck wondering which hole should i put my grave in?
And as I lay in,
I do the most dangerous thing.
I gain hope, and i stand tall.
Staring into the sky, watching the birds fly, maybe I can be free too.
Then I ******** fell.
I ******** fell hard.
And that ******** fall i fell ******** me over
And now I'm scarred.
My heart shattered and demolished.
I was scared
Now i don't care.
Being attacked by heavy air.
I want to say a prayer
but I can't find the words anywhere.
Life gave me roses,
the thorns gave me pain, I cried.
Pretty petals gave me a hope.
Then the flowers wilted, they died.
Life gave me a gift, i smiled.
And when i opened it, it broke.
So i take out a blunt and smoke.
Yes I know it's killing me,
but life has already done that
So what's next?
Man I'm so vexed.
I couldn't care less.
Can't talk on other subjects.
Cuz there's nothing else.
What is life?
Besides a beautiful knife?
God forgive me,
please heal me.
I was so high finding my dreams.
I fell, and now i can't see.
And if i can't live my dreams, then I don't want to be.
Please change my mind.
Please strengthen me.
I'm so tired.
I don't want to be weak.
Why bring me up to fall?
I'm still trying to process it all.
I want to find hope again,
but hope eventually will end.
Won't it?
I want to give life a reason to let me live.
But my anger is getting the best of me,
what if life doesn't forgive?
What if life leaves me broken and empty?

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