I know for a fact that somewhere deep down, I'm a good person, and all these negative and horrible actions I create are just my low self-esteem haunting me. I look at myself and wonder, why? why do I have to have such low self-esteem, there is people out there, with much worse lives than mine...and they are a lot more positive than me. I want to find a way to make Michel Happier, and stop worrying all the time about what he does. He's his own person, and he left me once before...and I was the reason, it never had anything to do with him at all.
I need to change for the sake of my relationship.