At this very moment, I'm sitting in a nice quite spot at university all by myself and I thought it would be a nice time to collect my thoughts. Now, before I continue, I just want you all to know that I'm not depressed or anything. I think it's just one of those times in your life where you think to yourself "People suck... people just suck."
So like I told you guys in the previous post, all of my friends at uni, though they are still my friends, have changed quite immensely and quite suddenly. That's what I found myself thinking about when I decided to hide away from the rest of society in this tiny little corner. What I love about this place is that it's right there in the centre of everything but no one ever comes here because they're satisfied with the safety and seclusion of the library. Clearly, those people haven't found this place. I call it The Space. Original, isn't it? I'll be honest though, I wasn't actually the person who discovered The Space (obviously), but the friend who showed it who me (let's call her Panda) no longer turns up to uni anymore because she's spending more time with her boyfriend.
Which leads onto exactly what I'm going to be talking about for this whole entry. Change. See, for the first 6 months of this year, my closest friend at uni at the moment, Sweet, was studying in England. I'm not gonna lie, it was a struggle without her here. Everyday, my friend Belle (he's a guy by the way... sorry, no real names ) would constantly complain to each other about how much we missed Sweet and counted down the months before her return. We were hoping that once she came back, everything would be back to normal and uni would be fun again.
Unfortunately though, these past few days I've been noticing a real change in her. Before she left, she was my conscience... my good influence. She would always pester me to go to class, to do my assignments. When we went to parties, she was always making sure that neither of us were drinking alcohol (because I don't drink alcohol. She does a little bit but she's never been drunk). She was just a good girl. She's still a good girl now but... well... hmm. See, she hasn't been attending her classes, she's started having really bad drink ups with her housemates (I mean, just as regular college kids would) and she's been submitting her assignments late. I think England changed her for the worst. I miss old Sweet. Actually I miss old everything.
Although, I actually think she may be acting like this because she misses all of her friends in England, which is understandable because most of our friends now are boring and have changed ever since she left. But every time I see her upset, I never know what to do. I mean, she's been keeping good contact with all of her English friends and she skypes with them a lot, but I just wish her heart was here with us too. I don't want to lose another friend.
I guess all I can do really is to help Sweet out as much as I can. I mean, if I could I would buy tickets for her and I to fly away to England so she can see her friends and so I can fulfil my dream of going there. It's always been something I wanted to do. However, I'm just not capable of this. I miss the way things were before.
If any of you guys have studied abroad and are in Sweet's situation, where you've come back and everything has changed or where you're missing your friends abroad like crazy, I wanna here from you guys. How did you cope with it? I really wanna help Sweet out.
Thanks for reading!
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