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Fragmented Self who wanders through life like a dreamer and wades through the river of dreams as though it were the only truth left in this world
Managing My Stress
As most of you know, my hair has been falling out at an alarming rate and I've been freaking out. In response to this tragedy, I am taking control of my stress and getting a hair cut. Yes, it sucks that I will no longer be able to play with my hair or attract me, but with wimpy hair there is nothing to really play with and I am in no mood for a new man in my life. I do no foresee any relationships any time soon. In fact, I just told off someone from my past to leave me alone because being around men is poisonous.

I'm still learning how to deal with the emptiness inside of me so I can't be expected to take on a relationship. I can't be expected to think about someone else when I need to learn to support myself. I can't support someone else in that intimate way. I can't soothe someone in that intimate way. I will scratch. I will bite. Back the ******** off.

School isn't really that hard. It shouldn't stress me out. I think the difference is that I am working AND going to school. There are times when I don't get any time to myself and I craaaaave that. I have all this energy that I need to burn but by the time I get this surge, it is too late to workout. I can't use our home stuff cause my dad sleeps down there. I don't have my roleplaying outlet cause my Frech galpal is busy. I don't have threads because no one wants me. I can't join others cause I can't find any that I would want to join. I search. I had not been able to draw until last night so my outputs were severely limited. Now I think I may try to get a scanner again so I can be art buds with Jordan. That would cheer me up.

I'm going to manage my homework better. This should help with the stress/hair problem. Phew.





 
 
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