I don't know if you noticed, but i left a few months ago to get my real life sorted out. It wasn't, so much, horrendous, but it wasn't sparkling either. So i left, and came back, thinking "oh, my life is better. I'll definitely come back now." When in all reality, it wasn't. It just seemed like it was.
I'm trying to fix it, but I'm realizing I'm just distracted more and more as the days wear on, with Gaia, Tumblr, and all my online distractions. Basically, Facebook is the only thing I check with interest, and everything else just sort of... idk, is not really all that important to me.
Okay, getting off topic. Point is, I'm not in it 100% anymore, like I said last round, and like i was for season one of this contest. I'm not saying I'm quitting and I will continue to submit as I can. But, with me doing my absolute best to both get a job, save up some money for a car and (hopefully, one day) college, but, hey, who's going to get to do that without cutting off all four of your limbs and selling two of your major organs, I doubt it will happen.
I hate chickening out like this, but, then again, it's online; anonymity is about as personal to me as that ugly painting at your aunt whoevers house that hangs over the mantle, daring you to harp on the horrendous quality of it, like it knows just what you're thinking.
This wasn't a read on you, or ANY of the other contestants. I'm pretty sure you are all wonderful people in RL, but this whole experience with my first contest run by a no longer around ATer, with people i have no respect, like or even any feelings but contempt for, just left a bitter taste in my mouth, that's all. I don't know how my friend put up with it for so long without permanently injuring himself and/or putting a gun to his head.
So, that's it, I guess. Sorry that you had to listen to me rant and all. And just to make sure I'm clear (words never translate well on here for me. How is that? ) I am not quitting, I will just not be as active around Gaia as I was before I left, while trying to still submit something, with absolutely no promises I will get in.
And on a final note, I will probably just send a message of importance out, stating that I am resigning for good if I either can't manage, or just do not want the distraction any longer.
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