PenguinColada
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Update On Life
So much has happened in the past few years and I haven't had the time to log on. Let's start from the top, then.

Upon entering high school, I came out of the closet as being bisexual, as I have been since I turned 12. Before, I tried to deny myself. I prayed and prayed all the time, asking "god" why he would test me like this. I even became suicidal. But after a while, prayers remained unanswered and I became a hardcore atheist. It was after this that I began to accept myself and realize that I could not change.

I, of course, was bullied for my views. Teachers would make a mockery of me in front of the class, simply because I was atheist. When I started dating my friend (who was also female), the whispers behind my back from the church-goers drove me mad. I grew to know only hate towards all forms of religion and learned only anger.

I graduated high school in May of 2011 and began my life as a college student. I signed up with the intent to complete the associate's degree of Computer Networking and Support Technology. My first semester, I made the mistake of doubling up on classes and almost failed. I received a publishing offer from a company in Georgia and, sadly, had to turn them down because I could not find time to work on one of my many started novels.

But I had the joy of meeting my one and only that semester. I was accepted into his family right away, and they were more loving and caring than my own family, who was going through some trouble (again). After some time, my mother broke it off with my father AGAIN and claimed that she was moving to Alaska. She told me that I could either stay or go back home with her. That very day, my stuff was packed and I was moved in with my boyfriend. I got a job and worked 40+ hours a week to support the two of us (he couldn't find work) while I went to school for 18 hours.

My last semester in college, I decided that Computer Networking wasn't for me (my mother made me choose that degree). I figured that I'm already so far into it, I may as well complete it, but I added Graphic Design as well. When I graduate in (hopefully) May, my boyfriend and I (who have been together two years) will be moving closer to his family where I will attend a four year school for Web Design Administration.


In my times and trials, I eventually began to look into religion, sexuality, philosophy, and other taboo texts during my college years. I realized that there could be a deity, but there isn't sufficient evidence to support one, and I can now identify as agnostic. I also delved into politics and human rights, and label myself as a humanitarian. I fight for what I believe in, and I fight for the good of the people. I research certain topics until I know truth and I petition and make my voice heard.

As for my family? My mother and father are back together. My mother graduated last May and is having trouble finding a job. I don't speak to my sister very often (VERY long story). Let's just say everything word of warning went over her head and I can't stick around to see her destroy herself over stupid decisions.