I'm still depressed and everything I do doesn't make me feel better, it makes me feel so dead. I've been recently thinking about committing suicide for about a few weeks now but I still have a will to live in a way. I think about my friends and family and how they kinda treat me ok but I hate the feeling that I have.
I REALLY HATE WHO I AM AND I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
I've recently begun to hate men as well, I can't help it but it's a psychological reason.
I just hate how they get more of a reason to do the things they like, while I get restricted by everyone.
I know that my thoughts are all over the place but I just don't know what to think anymore. I thought that maybe I was sane but sometimes reality just doesn't seem real anymore.
Anime is the only thing so far that distracts me from my life and I want it to be there forever- or at least as long as I last.
· Sat Aug 03, 2013 @ 08:53am · 0 Comments