I'm so happy, cause today I found my friends. They're in my head.
I'm not quite sure what i've been doing lately. back in June, i was having fun and getting ready to totally go crazy with my imagination, and build up something awesome, and i did. now, i'm stuck... this has been confusing, i've been bored lately. i need to go all out! i'm bored, i need to do anything that takes control of my mind. i need to listen to the music that makes me feel great, like Nirvana... i need to watch all of the movies that inspire me, and read things, and prepare my mind to do it again. it's getting late in the summer... next will be fall, and then winter. i need to move ahead.
i've been doing alot of thinking that i shouldn't be doing. alot of deep thinking that's been depressing me like crazy these days. it takes control of my mind, and it ruins my life. it makes me think about things, and i become depressed and unhappy, and i stay that way, and it ruins days, weeks, even months... so i'll do what i always do. i'll medicate my mind with things that i enjoy, and i'll overdo it and go crazy with whatever makes my mind feel better! and i'll pass out because that's the only way i get sleep... i'll influence myself with whatever inspires me, and i'll write like crazy, and i'll go where i want and do what i want, and i'll make myself feel better, because that's what we do, right? i'll medicate my thoughts until i'm numb, and i don't feel depressed! =P
like in June, i was doing it then, and i made some good memories. everything has been so busy this summer. the end of summer has been busy, so it's boring. and i've decided that i want to be alone, so i am seeing friends and even family as little as possible! because they don't do anything for my head. so, i'll be alone and medicate my head with whatever i want. whether it's walking miles and miles and getting lost in the middle of the night, or writing for hours on end, or making temporary friends out of complete strangers that i'll never see again, or indulging myself in every video game, movie, manga, and anime until the sun rises and i pass out. how rad am i, right? xP
take an example, people. if you're depressed, and you don't talk about it with your friends and family, then what do you do? you blow them all off and be alone, and do whatever you want. do any and everything you want, and then your mind will move on. you'll make some happy memories for your life. because, that's what it's all about, right?
this entry isn't supposed to be more miserable thoughts. i'm actually pumped right now... i'm gonna go unleash my full awesomeness! >=O
by myself, however i please, to medicate.
I'm so excited, I can't wait to meet you there... but I don't care.
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