I feel like I am really good at ******** up my life right now. I'm trying hard not to, but I keep doing it anyways despite my better judgement. Mostly, with my relationships to people at the moment. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I apparently want to jumble everything into one big mess...it makes me want to run away. Maybe that's why. Everything is just so much easier if I can run away from everything, like my feelings.
Perhaps I just shouldn't step out into the world. I have grown used to my Tumblr, Gaia, and AnimeFreak I have even been trying to compile a good twitter and currently contemplating making rage comics.
Lately, it's getting harder to interact with people. I don't see much of a point and I feel like I always end up hurting somebody. Well...I have this thing with a guy named Vince and I really into him and he's an amaaaaazing kisser However, I don't want to be anything because I go away for school, I am not sure how much I want to be "tied down," and I don't want to get hurt by guys anymore. Though, on his birthday (there was drinking involved) there were many a girl kissing him...right in front of me. I didn't do anything or even try to because I am not one of those girls that are going to be all over guys just because I like them...It has been three years since a guy has been able to hurt me this bad and...I didn't take it very well, before I got drunk I was fine though...
I made out with one of his friends...and I went on a small date with him because I kind of kissed Vince after I kissed him. The date was just alright though, there was no fire!!! And I got the feeling he kind of just wanted to feel me up.
Anyway, I'm a mess. This entry is a mess. Messiness.