today, 7/31/13, my grandfather passed away. i'm just making this note in case i'm not here a lot. If I win any pets or owe anyone rp tags, I can only pray you'll be willing to extend me an olive branch for at least through monday.
The viewing is sunday, funeral is monday. Tomorrow morning, a lot of family are going to breakfast together.
I am finding that when I'm with everyone; I can't really deal with my feelings. I'm a highly empathetic person. so when i'm with so many people who are mourning in such a high intensity and a great deal more than I am (my mom, her sisters, and my grandma), I find my emotions completely overrun with feeling what they feel. In fact, while we have been going through hospice for this several weeks, I only go over there every few days because I just cannot handle being there all the time. I can quickly be overwhelmed with everyone's worry and all that.
I was kind of relieved to come home tonight where i could just sit and stew in private. So this isn't sudden. I did have my chance to tell him I loved him and to say goodbye. In fact, me and my brother got there within 20 minutes of his passing.
Now for anyone who i owe rp tags to: i probably will pop in at least once a day to make some tags. Please keep replying to mt stuff. It will be a pleasant distraction from all the depressing sadness that i'll be surrounded with when i'm come home from being with family.
Tonight when i was over there with my family; part of me wished I could be here on gaia. Some of you guys are closer friends to me than real life friends.
· Thu Aug 01, 2013 @ 03:57am · 0 Comments