So, Aiste's leaving tomorrow and this evening Ayoub and I said goodbye to her. Although to be honest, I think he's still saying goodbye :winkwink:
It took a lot for me to act normal (and I really suck at that), so I don't know if I really seemed normal. Aiste most likely didn't notice or care (as usual). Maybe Ayoub did, but we're buddies, so it doesn't matter.
The hardest thing being around her was knowing that she was yet another girl I tried to get intimate with, that called me a friend in reponse and went straight to sleeping with common friends of our's (or just acquaintances).
She is a beautiful girl and I think after she's left (+ a few weeks) I'll tell her how I felt, because the distance will make it much less likely for anything to happen between us and I'll have a load off my shoulders...
This is why I hate feelings. The just start for the wrong person and they are completely illogical. Until my holidays start, I think I'll be kinda down (maybe even longer). I'm kinda looking forward to time off from all this s**t. Not seeing people I have feelings for and concentrating on myself and those that I really care for (family).
I was recently looking at escort and hooker ads and didn't even get a boner. It's been about a month since I haven't fapped and I kinda want to test if my p***s is functional...
Guess I'll have to wait till the holidays to get some real motivation. Either I ask a friend (which won't work of course) or I pay 200 and get a pro...
Dammit, I'm feeling down again
Time for the "New Girl" Season 2 finale and sleep to turn off the feelings for a day.
· Tue Jul 30, 2013 @ 10:22pm · 0 Comments