Okay, so I just wanted to put something out there that maybe somebody else can relate to. Nobody lets you know that when you leave high school, that huge depression sets in. That your whole life feels like a twister. I'm so afraid, because I really do want so much out of life. I want to help other people, but I need to work at least two years before I can go to college. My family is broke right now and I get that. I can't help but worry though. In some ways I'm glad to try and work first, but in another, I want to be a social worker, and that's better while your young. And I know, two years is nothing, but I'm going to have to eventually move out, pay all my own bills, etc. And I want a family. I really want to be with my boyfriend forever. I mean, who doesn't want to be with the one they love forever? I know he wants to act though...or rather do anything involving film.
He wants to dive right into it, which I understand. I don't want to hold him back, but I'm so afraid, because I'll be just starting college when he gets out of high school (if I even get to start it that soon). He's two years youngers, so I know thins are going to be hard, but I'm willing to rough it out. I have to admit I worry though. He's my only real stability right now. I guess I just want to know I'm not alone. That I have more than him, because even though I know he's there, I don't want to dump all my problems on him for the next 6 years.