Here I am, brave yet lonely with too many wounded and scars in my weak heart. Why am i brave with such a weak heart? Looking at the past makes me weak because of my silly and pathetic behaviors that I admit to regret most of the things. Never do I know I'm still here. Memories are so beautiful to cherish in our heart but it's so painful to look at it and wish it could come back in time again. I've always wanted to go back and bring the good times back to the present. Well..Past is Past. What remains there stays in the past. I've learn that Life moves on and we must carry it for the rest of our life. I also learn that I shouldn't let those past affect my new life or what it seems to look like. Even if those memories that once made me happy with true heart, It was never meant to belong with me in the first place after letting it go. It was all gone and i believe it is the right thing to do. Yes, I am forcing myself to leave all of them behind my back and continue to live with the present. I am not letting them affect me whatsoever. I am not going to hear all those past when it's brought up. It's too painful and I have to live with all this hatred and loneliness and confusion inside my heart. Beside I've move on and let those memories slip through my hands as I won't ever see my chance anymore.
No matter how much this hatred, this anger, this depress, this confusion, or whatever it is, I can bear it. Even if it kills my smile. I'm used to it.
Now it's my turn to make you satisfied and comfort with your smile but I am way too strong to let my guard down. I’ll watch your problems but I’m not going to point it out until you realize it. I can see it clearly but not going to bother it if you’re happy with it. Then I can walk out and say “Live the choice you made. I’ve seen it coming yet you didn’t ask for my help.” However, I won’t go easy if you treat me with your pathetic and ridiculous games or plans. It will be unpredictable.
· Sat Jul 13, 2013 @ 08:43pm · 0 Comments