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A Rogue with Bloody Wings thinks....
i need another source to verify this. .
Have come to the conclusion that I am an ugly person.
I don't mean outside (even though I'm not exactly pretty) but on the inside. I might seem to be all nice, but I can actually be pretty blegh...
I'm pessimistic and sadistic since I always think violence is an optionand only bad outcomes are possible,
Selfish because even though I give things away, I'm not really sacrificing anything! I'm only giving what I don't want/need!!
Loser crybaby, when things don't go my way I cry lr throw a stupid useless fit! whycant I understand the bad?
My high standards have built a wall around me separating others causing me to drift.
Moddy all the time, why can't I just smile....
I just have wants! I want a best friend yet I won't let anyone in(is it because I was backstabbed so much?) I want to get better yet I won't strive to it
I start stories and 1 sided rivalries all in my head, why? I end up hating random people!
I'm a pain addict for usually replacing emotion with a lovely painor bad habit. I snap my fingers to rush worries away at work, claw myself to feel somehting and bruise myself when I'm mad.
I can't stick wiht one thing because I end up hating everything.
I wear a mentaL mask to hide who I really am

I know this, so why don't I change? Am I waiting a chain reaction? Sometimes I wish I could read between lines....

rogue blood angel
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